Hard weekend

But it's over. Going through fire is not fun. Not fun at all. You burn and smoke and then there is nothing left but ashes. This weekend was my week to make it through a whole week of *clean8 eating. Well, I didn't make it and I'm not going to try to do it again. I think thinking about it made it not happen. So... nuff said. I had a piece of pita bread with my salad on Friday. Yes, I could have thrown it out. Yes, I could have given it away, but no. I ate it and liked it. I have no excuse. I'm just who I am and I did what I did. I know for sure, I"m doing a lot more then anyone I know, except maybe one person. So, i'm not going to beat myself up about it. I have other goals I have to make and those are just as important as me trying to eat healthy. I ate Chinese food today also. yup. I ate it!!! Do I feel bad. NO. Do I feel like I failed myself. NO!!! I know it was a meal and it's over. I'm done trying to be perfect and I was not ever perfect in anything I've done. I get B's but not A's. I feel like I'm being graded. In my class though, I still passed my course and I'm no less a massage therapist then the person that got the A's. Tonight, I will eat my regular meal, veggies and protein and Digestive Enzymes and be happy that I did not take a whole day in fire. Peace. One-Day-At-A-Time.

WORKOUT - Did Goddess Upper Body and it was good. I had to use a dumbbell for some exercises that she used two. Otherwise, I kinda like this one. I will do it again on my next KB practice day.

What the

Something Within

I don't know what it is that is drawing different I CAN messages to me. Mary told me about the book, movie, THE SECRET and today, I just finished viewing the video, CONVERSATIONS WITH GOD. It left me feeling teary,, that there is something for me to do that no one else can do but I don't know what it is. I ask the universe to show me, tell me, what is it that I can do? This may be strange to who ever is reading this but.. there is something this woman has to do before I leave this earth. I pray I live to do it and to tell about it when it happens.

Training, is so demanding on the body. I did some of ADs video. She makes it seem as easy as blowing bubbles. But.. you try doing it and you are you challenged like climbing a mountain. It feels so far beyond me that I can only imagine. I want to get to the top of this. How do I press on and reach goal of being able to get to the finish line. I have to remember, the DVD is meant to be challenging. It's okay that I don't do it all. I've been doing this since August 8, 2008 and today is September 6, 2008.. It's the beginning of the journey and I'll remember to go step by step. One day-at-a-time. By the Grace of God, I will do more on Sunday.

The Pinnacle

Did this workout today. Very good. I didn't get the figure 8 to hold but, that's something to practice. Made stuffed peppers today and some beef stew. Sweating through it all.

Bonnie says I can get to 140 by Christmas. That's a tall order for me. But I'll put that number in my head and see if I can't get this body to follow. I'm still enjoying Thanksgiving, work or at home.

New You're Happening

It's happening. Don't know how or where but, it's moving. I weight 163.2. Wait... that needs to be bold. Let me bold it. I don't want to have to go searching for that accomplishment. That's a WOW moment. Not expected. Didn't want to do it because really, I feel like I have the same fat, just smaller. Don't know how that's possible but... it's still flubby around the middle. I do feel good for one month down, or it will be one month Sept 5. Later on today is another walk day. Now I am going to kick it around that park again with the Gymboss and my iPod. The last time I did not have music and I met Jade in the park. Today, I hope it's gorgeous. I have to start looking for warm-up suits so I can continue to walk even in the brisk of the Fall.

Only If God Says Yes..

I have to put this in my heart a lot more. Corey had an awful scare on Saturday morning. I don't know what this incident means for his life but I will pray to find the way for him and his family. Thank God, for taking care of my son in a very cruel world.

I won Goddess from eBay yesterday. Did not expect that. Was having a good chat with Nia about working out and what how each instructor is. Well, again, this has to be part of what I'm looking for in terms of being good at KBing. I"m glad she's in my life,... this is not.... by... chance...

I did what I said for exercise today:
10 2 arm swings
10 1 arm swings
10 high pulls
all x 3

not bad.. felt like I could do more but i think what I should do or can do is shorten my rest period. I took 1 minute but for what I did that was too long. Next time do it with 30 seconds.

Glorious Day

It is such a glorious, beautiful morning, I have to go out and walk. Here in New England you don't get to many nice gorgeous days to walk. I'm going eek some walking in and then come home and do KB exercise. I am not looking forward to cold walks but I best get ready to walk by walking more. I'm sure it will do some good...

Energy: I feel that I have more energy in the morning then when the day wheres on. It's now 5:40 and I don't have energy to KB. I walked 1/2 the park today with the Gymboss set for 5/1 and it made me sweat. Those bursts of fast walking were working. I'm not doing any KB work today. But it did give me a practice to do on Tuesday. I'll do
1: 10 two arm swings
2: 10 one arm swings
3: 10 high pulls 3 x.
That's the goal for Tuesday. Lets see if I can make it happen