Thursday, August 26, 2010

Hair fair

Hair is thin. Looks better when curled. I still don't love the feel of them. They are way to small.

Sammy is doing kinda good. She's just 12 weeks though. She howls too much when I'm not around. When I am there, as Ray says, she's quieter than a church mouse.

Reading or going through the Deepak Chopra cooking book. So far,it's enlightening. I really would love to learn how to cook nutritional foods. Even learn about nutrition so I can change it all up before it's too late.

Exercise is doing well. So far Maribai is working for me and I don't feel pressured. Gotta figure out how to get an iPad. lol Ya right, but hey, it can happen. Along with a new car, but that's not necessary.. I don't really want to pay payments and I'd rather travel to the Islands then have a new car. As long as mine is running well, it's great.

Friday, August 20, 2010

These Waves

These waves of up and down feel like an ocean. I'm glad I got pills to take care of the hot flashes. But what pills do they have to care of when you've had enough of stress at your job? I wish I could also enjoy going to work as much as some people who are doing a job they love. I never get to say, *I love my job*. People are so damn mean and evil it's infuriating. How can you enjoy 8 hours of constant bitching and people ready to fire someone for that person having a bad day. ??? They don't fire those that have medical issues but you have no issues and they still bitch at one thing and don't compliment the other 500 things that are good.

Samantha got her Dog tag today. We also went for a walk in DWF for 20 minutes. Trying to get her used to walking, 10 minutes one way and the other 10 on the way back. She did good.Got home and just sacked out on the floor.

I called about the Histology position. Will still be sure to see her when I get into work.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Reiki, Meditation, Yoga

These are what I want to learn. I want hands on,I want training. I want to do yoga daily and practice Reiki on myself daily and Sammy and each day should include Meditation.

Saturday, August 14, 2010


I know now, I'm drawn to peace. I found that through my meditation, I like peace. I like calm. When there is discord, I move away. I found that there is this person on the Wedding Forum, who always, always more times then positive, has something negative to say about someones thoughts, desires, choices, lack of being able to choose or just not being so smart?? I may not like what people are doing, choosing for their wedding but I don't voice it in a way as to make them feel inadequate. I don't like white shoes with a forest green dress. So what.. I don't have to wear it.. I may feel that something else in someones choice is not right but who am I to say, it..??? Let them enjoy their choices as they will iive with it the rest of their lives, not mine.

Friday, August 13, 2010

Ayurvedic change

it's feeling great. I'm going slow. I have Mirabli Holland videos and today I did my first meditation. I am doing a 21 day meditation challenge with Deepak Chopra. I also ordered his cooking book. I'm going to learn Ayurvedic cooking and change my body for the better.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

My Body

I'm very upset with how I've been feeling lately. Just totally fat. Totally not full of energy. I'm supposed to feel great aren't I? We have a new bed and it's good but , a bit stiff for me. But we had to get it so it will be suitable for Ray. I sleep, but not like I used to. I want to exercise now and I have to find something to do. I'm sick of having a buldging stomach.. I think there is something else bothering me but time will tell. I feel a bit upset about the measuring cup, the pan and the doors. One day, I hope I get used to it and it won't bother me so much but today. it crummy

yup. I'm married now and all praise to God. It was a fantastic wedding day. I would not, could not ask for more. I loved the whole day. Not a lot of brides and say that and it's too bad. But I loved the time, the day, the people, the food, the decorations, the photographer, the venue and most of all the Love.

It's sad

I've not exercised like I used to. I used to enjoy it and now, I can't stand it. I haven't seem to find the one that goes with my body. I like something but it's not fantastic to me.

My next try is Zumba. ya right. You think I want to dance all the time. No, I want energy work. I want Reiki or I need to get into a good yoga one that really is peaceful.

I love my Candlelight yoga but you don't want to do the same one every day. So, I will probably be buying more Yoga DVD's so I can do that. I just have to get over the fact that I have a stomach and I'm not a paper clip. But.. I can still do yoga. Wouldn't it be great if someone came and practice with me every day?