Tough Day Today

Staying motivated. Needs help. Doing the exercise is fine. No problems. I don't mind pushing it. What I do mind, is doing it alone. Setting myself on a program and commiting to the time. The time. The specific time. I like to exercise but dang it all. Why does it have to be at a certain time? Things that are not fun are at a specific time. Like going to work. I don't look forward to that. I love leisure but i guess left up to leisure, it wouldn't get done. So, today I learned. There has to be a time. I don't know how I'm going to do this but I will think about what is the best time for me to commit to exercise. I have to get it done because, I have to pay my bills and going to a gym is not an option. The cost is out there. Way out there. So, this means to get what I want. I have to get the shovel in hand and dig in the cold dirt. That's what it feels like when you have to do something that is work, on your own.